December 2011
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One day,
I’m going to be walking down the aisle in a long, white wedding dress towards a handsome, sexy white boy. We will have amazing sex afterwards and nine months later have beautiful naturally-curled eye-lashed, blue or hazel-eyed babies. Yes.
There’s one thing that I don’t like about my birthday: it’s on New Year’s. Since it’s during the holidays, I have no school. Ugh I get so jealous of the people who get to spend it with their friends at school. I want balloons and cards and being greeted and to be sang to in the quad in front of everyone. I want to be attacked with hugs and just being surrounded with the best friends I could ever...
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You will never understand what I went through because of you. Those nights where I cried myself to sleep, the mornings after when I felt terrible, eyes bloodshot red and puffy. The complicated times when I’d argue with myself on whether or not I should talk to you. I always felt like such a bother, the way you’d talk to me in a simple way. The way I’d annoy my best friend with complaints about you...
Long story short, don’t get too comfortable or attached.
You made it quite clear that you knew we were drifting apart. If you hate the fact that we’re not as close as we used to be, why didn’t you bother doing anything about it? Just anything at all. You could have hit me up once in a while, and I would’ve done the same. That would’ve kept us close. But instead, you decided to just let us drift apart. I tried saving this friendship by...
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New year, new me.
As stupid and cliche as it sounds, I’ve never been more serious. I am going to work on becoming the bigger person, even if it takes the whole three-hundred and sixty five days that I have. I want to try and keep myself from pushing people away, especially the ones that mean the most to me.. the ones that stayed, no matter what I went through with or without them. I always think that I want...
You know what sucks? Being the only happy one when the rest of my friends are sad, and then being the only sad one when the rest of my friends are happy. Then they get annoyed with me.
I love how I get so into a book that I feel the exact emotion the narrator feels. And when they get heartbroken, I do too. Lol omg.
Those really quiet and oh so boring days when it’s the weekend, and I’m the first one to wake up in the house. I go downstairs and somehow, in my refrigerator and cabinets full of food, I can’t find anything to eat. My mind is somewhat blank, so I set my mind to the television set. I plop myself on the couch, prepared for a long day consisting of nothing. But there’s...
As much as I hate drama, if there’s going to be any between us, let’s actually keep it between us. Don’t go posting it around on facebook, tumblr and twitter. Don’t tell other people about what’s happening, because you’ll most likely change the story to get them on your side and against me. I won’t do it either, and that’s a promise. I learned that getting other people involved does not help...
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Taking a deep breath, she undressed herself. In… out… she said to herself. Just breathe. She stood bare in front of the mirror. She looked at herself. “Why am I so fat and ugly?” she whispered to her reflection. Now she looked up, and spoke to God. “Why can’t I be like the other girls at school? They’re beautiful and thin and envious. I’m hideous and torn apart. Everyone says it to my face, even....
Selflessness vs. selfishness.
Selflessness prohibits growth in life, and selfishness speaks for itself. You can’t ask for too much, yet you shouldn’t be able to not ask for anything in life. If you ask me, both selflessness and selfishness are bad. You need to help yourself before you can help others, otherwise you will find yourself leading a very stressed out life. Your life wouldn’t even be...
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Imagine.
Imagine the whole world fast asleep at night. Not a single soul with blinking eyes or a talking mouth at the very moment. No lights on in a single house, on the street, in stores, in and on cars. No stores with the blinking “open” sign. Hearing not even a sound of one car on the road, or bright head and rear lights to be seen. There would be no sign of the human race if another kind...
Why would you try to bring me down when you know I’m at my happiest times? And it’s either because you’re not happy, or just because. You’re fucked in the head. Do you really need to hurt other people just to make yourself feel good? Do you really have no heart? Are you just that miserable? I swear, people like you are what make me an asshole at times.
I have a lot of imperfections. And if that’s what stops someone from loving me, or if they have to “deal with” or “get over” my imperfections, then fuck that. I don’t want that person. They shouldn’t have to get past any of my flaws. They should love me for who the fuck I am because I’m beautiful.
Everyone will try to get you scared, make you feel like no one will ever love you because of the way...
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Christmas morning.
This morning, I woke up, brushed my teeth and washed my face, and then went downstairs. It was really quiet because my mom came back from work and went to sleep and my dad is currently at work. So, as sad as it sounds, I opened up my Christmas presents alone. Lol but I turned on Justin Bieber’s Christmas music so I wasn’t alone.
I received cheetah-print flats, a dark gray infinity...
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To be known.
To be known as the girl who’s head is always help up high, even through the toughest times in her life. The girl who made mistakes and actually learned from them. The girl who never hesitated to let out her thoughts and feelings toward a certain subject, or just in general. The girl who always had a smile on her face even after being heartbroken, and says “shit, it’s not the end of the world. I’m...
I find it amazing how some of my friends have the nerve to say that they don’t have any friends who are always there for them. It makes me feel so unappreciated. I happen to be one of the not-so-many people that’s always there for my friends. Or, I try to be anyway, because most of them just push me away, thinking that I couldn’t possibly be any help. They push me away, thinking that I’m not...
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Yo mama’s so fat that she took a look at her life and realized she wanted a change so she joined a dieting group and started eating better and exercising more and she got down to her goal weight and now looks and feels better than ever and it’s very inspirational good for her.
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I wish I still believed in Santa Claus.
It’s pretty self-explanatory. I mean, going to sleep super early, knowing that Santa knew whether I was sleeping or not. I pushed myself to go to sleep early because if I didn’t Santa wouldn’t come and bring me presents.. waking up early on Christmas morning to find so many presents of all different colors, shapes and sizes.. oh the joy that would build up inside me when reading...
I don’t understand why you have to put someone on blast. Seriously, if you have drama with them, roast on them privately. Talk shit to them and them only. No one really cares about your drama. It’s as if, when you put someone on blast, you need other people to see what’s happening so that they can take your side. And that makes you look like a pussy, like you can’t handle...
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What I think is worse than being enemies with the boy I like’s girlfriend, is being friends with her. I have to act like I don’t care, like I don’t have any feelings for her significant other. I have to tell her that they are so cute together. I have to encourage her while being in that relationship. I have to threaten him not to break her heart or else. I have to be a third wheel when she invites...
At this point,
I don’t even care anymore. You can do whatever you want. I’m tired of giving you so many “second chances.” Looking back now, I don’t think you even deserved the first chance. You fucked up the last time. So just go ahead and walk out of my life, because for once, I really won’t care that someone who was once so special to me just walked away. And don’t...
I’m always the friend that’s there for people. If I’m busy, I make time for them when they need to let everything out and/or need advice. I’m glad to give it to them and be all ears. I don’t know, it just makes me feel like I’m a good friend. What’s not fair is that when I need someone, everyone seems to be too busy, or they just don’t want to be there for me. They don’t even care about my...
Your perfect little girl dropped a grade on her report card again. Your perfect little girl talked back to you again. Your perfect little girl lied to you all her life. Your perfect little girl cries herself to sleep. Your perfect little girl dated before sixteen. Your perfect little girl has given up on life. Your perfect little girl wants to run away. Your perfect little girl thinks she’s...
So lately,
you’ve been getting on my nerves. You’ve been so disrespectful towards our parents, talking back to them when they’re showing you right from wrong. You ignore when they ask you for favors, and when you don’t ignore them, you yell at them saying “you have two other kids! Tell them to do it.” It disgusts me how you’ve been acting lately. You’re not...
People will walk into your life. But sometimes the littlest thing you do or say, any mistake at all, will cause them to walk out and forget all about you. Simple as that. You never thought they’d leave, and you felt blessed to have them in your life. But then you say or do something that they think just isn’t right, and poof, they’re gone. Which is why you need to appreciate everyone that walks...
My biggest fear has to be losing anyone in my family. I love my parents and my two brothers. I have to say, I’m glad I’m one of those really lucky people to have parents that never split, no matter how big and stressful their fights have gotten. And my brothers, we fight from time to time. But growing up as the only girl, not to the mention the youngest in the family, I had to learn to get along...
Okay I understand that you hate me and I understand what I did to make you hate me. But seriously, if you don’t “give a fuck about me anymore”, don’t want me in your life, and most importantly, hate me, then it must be my fault to wonder as to why you’re always checking up on my twitter and tumblr. Lol what the fuck. Do you think I talk shit about you or indirectly...
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You promised me.
You told me that you wouldn’t let him get in between our friendship. You told me that even if you two are together all the time, you wouldn’t forget to include me in your life. You told me that I would always be more important because I’m one of your best friends. You told me that nothing would change, and that we’ve spent the so much time together that no one could ever...
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"Daddy, I'm home!"
I dropped my luggage to the floor as I took a few steps in through the front door. Oh, the aroma of citrus air freshener all around the house.. the usual. It’s been two years since I left for New York with my mom. And finally, I was home. My real home with my real father, not some old apartment owned by some man who my mom met a couple of weeks before marrying him. It was no surprise that...
If only I had the guts to step up and say something when an act of bullying happens right in front of me.
I’ve seen it happen so many times all my life. Little kids, older kids, kids at my school, kids I don’t even know. It happens everyday, I’m sure. And I just stand there, watching it happen before my very eyes. I could choose to do something, like step up and tell the bully to stop messing...
I realize that I’ve been working very hard at keeping people away, wanting to be alone. I always think it’ll get better if I’m alone.. but when I’m alone, it’s doesn’t get any better. It just gets worse. So now I just feel like, I don’t care how much people bug me. I’d rather be with someone, anyone at all, than be alone.
If I tell you something secretive or personal without saying “don’t tell anyone”, don’t just go telling the whole world. You should know what it means when I tell you something without having to tell you to not tell anyone. It means that I already automatically trust that you won’t go telling people. You’re one of the friends I can tell anything to. So if anything ever slips out, I don’t...
If you don't approve of someone's relationship,
that’s okay, you might have your reasons. But just learn to keep it to yourself. Yes, we’re all entitled to our own opinions, this one being on relationships. But in all honesty, your opinion does not matter. No one’s opinion does, when it comes to two other people’s business. And if this is what you think, it really doesn’t support your side when you say “aw, you guys are so cute together!”...
My resolution. Okay, well first off, this is like, a mini resolution. I need to stop spending so much money on useless things. And food. And now my real resolution.
I want to be more appreciative for the people that have stuck around in my life. I want to be more thankful and actually show it to my parents because I know that at times, they think that I’m not thankful for the things they do for...
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"I'm sorry."
What? Did you say something? I couldn’t hear you over all that bullshit.
And then I see you with him. He looks at you the way he used to look at me. He smiles at you.. that perfect smile, the way he used to smile at me. He talks to you with that oh-so soothing voice the way he used to talk to me. The thing is, you don’t even take the time to appreciate and adore the way he feels about you. You ignore the fact that he wants to be with you. You just don’t care.. God, you...
You care way too much about what people think of you.
I honestly care about what people think about me, and whether I like it or not, I accept it and move on. You should too. You’re so different around me and other people because you know that I’m not judgemental, but other people are. You’re comfortable around me. You’re loud and obnoxious and you scream and laugh. But with other people, you’re...
I absolutely love it when people stand up for me when something harsh is said about me, whether I’m there or not. It just shows how much of a true friend they are. It’s so much better than just waiting until they see me and then telling me that someone was talking crap about me. Like, you should have done something about it if you were really my friend. But thanks anyway, I guess.
I'd like to get something straight.
I do not like sharing my best friend. I’m the type of person who believes in only having one really important best friend, which I do. I may have other really close friends, but I have only one best friend. And I know I’m her only main best friend, too. We’ve gone through so much these past years, and no one knows me better than her, not even me. She knows everything there is to know, even my...
“I’m sorry.” “For what? “I.. don’t know.” How do you expect me to forgive you if you don’t know what you’re sorry for. I asked you “for what” because I wanted to see if you were going to own up to the mistakes you made. I obviously know what you should be sorry for. But I don’t think you do. You’re just apologizing because you don’t like it when I’m mad at you. I’m pretty aware of your actions...
Advice? You shouldn’t date a guy that leaves his girl for you, because chances are, he’ll leave you too when he finds someone better.
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I find it so amusing how when one friend and I get into an argument, the rest of my friends are mad at me. They all ignore me for nothing, except for that one person has a reason to. And so I’m just like “whatever, you guys can do whatever you want. I don’t care.” But then days or weeks pass by when finally, either me or that person apologizes and we become close friends...
You're my friend.
Of course I’m going to be nosy. I’m going to get in your business when you’re sad, mad, feeling suicidal, heartbroken, etc. I’m not going to just “leave it alone” the way you ask me to. I’m going to make the person who caused you to feel the way you do pay the consequence. You being sad and depressed is so very rare, so when someone makes you feel that way, they’re just simply asking to get...
My English teacher is amazing.
She has us write journal entries on everything and anything: our thoughts about a certain situation or object or subject, something we’ve heard about in the news or online that’s somewhere else in the world and our thoughts about it, just everything. And once in a while, she gives us a time to just write to her about anything. Problems we’re having...
There’s this girl at my school named Brooklyn. She’s new this year. I admire her very much. She does whatever she wants because she wants to, and she doesn’t care about what other people will think about her. A couple of months after I met her, she cut her hair to the point where it could be a male haircut, but it still suited her really well. I loved it. Obviously she loved it...
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Can you imagine waking up one morning, and discovering that you are the only one that exists on earth right now? Anywhere and everywhere you go, there is no one around, but yourself? Dialing all the numbers in your contact list, and not getting one single answer? Going online and seeing no one else online but you? Going door to door, waiting for more than five minutes, and never reaching anyone?...